Hello; Shalom, Aloha, Bonjour, Hola and to all the ones I am unsure how to spell welcome! :)
I usually do a video blog and maybe add writing to it but today I am doing a write only; hints the name entry 1. although I am primarily a writer; (more conversationalist then proper) I am also a producer in which I visualize what I write; and that my people is the reason why I decided to do a video blog; amongst other reasons( watch episode one). over my next three video blogs I will be conducting interviews these interviews will then be the follow up of the season.... just so I can feel as though I am doing something in a timely manner. another reason I am just taking the time to write as oppose to video talk is because this is at a transition (by this I mean my blog) I don't think I am going to continue with the current name "Random thoughts, Happenings and Ideas. " only because my thoughts although seemingly random are not so random at all. But I am indeed Beauty's Queen! an one name can be tricky,just because people like catchy things.
I realized even now that my purpose for this blog is not to be popular or to catch a lot of peoples attention; but instead to keep those attention who pay attention. I'm not saying one thing or another is exactly what it shall be but I am going to say my truth as it comes to me. no pressure from others to be someone I'm not or Ideas from other hearts. no need for view numbers to be high because one is good enough for me. Even if I share too much of my heart for some it's good for me.
okay all that being said I have a question for anyone who would be willing to answer it.
How do you commit yourself to a road with five before you with certainty?
I have been in limbo about focus, although my thought is always "first things first" I mostly jump ahead at least three to four steps; which causes me to lose focus faster than not. I am at this moment wanting to focus on one thing. I have not decided as of yet if I will share that one thing within this blog. so for now I will call it a thorn in my side. why is it a thorn in my side you ask? because I have been struggling with it for years ; sometimes winning but mostly losing. I know how to win but as in a lot of things it takes focus to do so with something that is strong. I am like a boxer who gave the opponent the ole one two, he fell down and I turned around jumping in victory then he used his legs to make me trip. I know what you are thinking don't turn your back on your enemy and such is truth; but what do you do when it's more of a fight with a loved one? in life you have people that are there for the long haul and those people you fight with and disagree with but they are there to stay, so at some point in your fight you let your guard down and it is preposterous to think that you can always be on guard without fail. the thought sounds good but.... well as of right now this is my guard; and my focus. I am attempting to just do the first thing.
If I leave you hanging on these thoughts its because I am hanging on these thoughts! who figures everything one in one sitting? until we chat again
I'm Beauty's Queen!
